Convo:
Her: so I have a question
HIM: sure
Her: Is it a bad idea to base our
future/my future on a relationship that may go bad for whatever reason and I am
stuck or left in a position where I am unfamiliar?
Him: I <3 (i). Any relationship
may go bad if you let it and no it hardly matters if you are in Boston or NJ or
Yemen. But why do you think this relationship has gone bad???
That
puzzles me that you would suggest that by your question.
Her: I am not saying this
relationship has gone bad
Him: it sure sounds that way to me
or as if you are anticipating it shall
Her: I am asking you if it were to
go bad, is it really a good idea that everything relies on your partnership?
Him: You have to commit and commit
without reservation - we have discussed this. If you do not trust me, my love,
my concern or whatever say so now. If you
want someone else in your life tell me now.
Her: No I don’t want anyone but you.
I trust you with everything that I have but if you are willing to give that up
or whatever for one lame night or you not agreeing with a decision I made -
then I will have to think about how much I should really put into this...
everything or part.
Him: Never said that at all ever
tonight - simply said you disappointed me. Nothing else
Her: right nothing else for an hour.
Him: Look I told you in my text and
a thousand times I don't change nor does my love or commitment to you change
because you disappointed me. How many time do I have to say it for you to understand
that Porkchop. Besides it was 26 mins. not an hour.
Her: it was like 2 hours
Him:
Jules look at the time stamps on the phone!
YOU WERE
THE ONE WHO DISAPPEARED
You wrote
at 8:10 then not till I asked you numerous times if you were at bar and in fact
called you three times during intermission at symphony - look at your missed
calls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Her: yes i was at the bar
Him: Ha no kidding
Her: sorry i missed your calls
Him: Do you want me to give you the
whole time sequence???
Her: no
Him: I did not ignore you - It is
impossible for me to do that no matter if I am really angry which I was
not!!!!!!!!
Her: ok, i didn’t know you were
driving home.. I was driving at the same time you were driving I guess.
Him: yes I suppose
Her: but i was scared you were
ignoring me (not knowing you were driving)
Him: Look I am not angry - not
ignoring you - not anything like that
Her: ok, I know now but I thought
you were and it wasn’t a nice drive home
Him: Well never jump to hasty conclusions
- and know this I would never do that. I am incapable of ignoring you
Her: ok
Him: ok?
Her: I love you Leandor and I am so sensitive
towards you. You say I can hurt you so easily, but you know what? You can do
the same to me.
Him: I love you Jules - If I did not
you would not be able to disappoint me from time to time by what you do - part
of the equation see. I did not intend
to tonight you were hasty in drawing that conclusion.
Her: Yes and I am glad I was wrong.
Him: Good.
Her: grrr.
Him: grrrr is right. I just think
that blowing off class for the reason you did was silly, irresponsible, juvenile
and plain stupid.
Her: and on top of it the bar night
was sucky and lame- (if you want to stuff it in my face then go ahead)
Him: No. Just learn from the
experience - so tell me about it pls.
Her: it just sucked.
Him: ya how so - who was there
besides the great and good BvOp?
Her: The people he invited or
friends.... the personalities just did not mix well. I mean everyone was nice
but there was no like community convo where everyone can jump in at some point
Him: Oh ya that does suck.
Her: mainly because there was this
girl who was there (she was in my classics class) and she has a sort of
dominant personality so she just over rides everyone and on top of it most of
the night she and BvOP were just talking about inside jokes. Was so lame at the
bar when I went it was just me, the girl Nicki, some kid and BvOP. Oh and some
other kid so there were 5 of us all together
Him: ya
Her: I mean Nicki is nice but she
just likes to be in the centre of attention
Him: Well I will not throw it in your
face but thought it might be something like that from the beginning - am sorry
porkchop really I am. I do not like to
see you like that - you are too nice a kid. Well whatever water over the dam
Her: And then so they were talking
and I was talking to this one kid that was majoring in economics and then we
sort of stopped to see what everyone else was talking about and then Nicki goes
"Yea she moved to Jersey, UGH, and it is not New Jersey it is Jersey, can
you believe that!?" and then the economics kid turns to me and he says
"Do you know what they are talking about? " and I say "no, but I
am from jersey" and he goes "Oh damn, back up! Stay in your
corner!" and then Nicki kind of stops but doesn’t know what is going on.
Him: HA.
Her: And then 2 more people show up
and we all move to a bigger table but I get up and decide to leave because it
was so not worth staying and I finished my 2nd beer and I wanted to see you...
so then I don’t sit down and I put on my scarf and Nicki is like "Where
you going?" and I say "I have to go home because if I stay i will
drink more" and she says "Well that is the point" and I say
"No I have to drive home" and she says "Where are you driving
?" and say "jersey" and she is like taken aback and the
economics kid is like "ohhhhhh "
Him: OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GO JULES
Her: And then she tries to cover it
up and say "Haha I never been to jersey but they say it is the armpit of
the states" And I say "ok well not northern jersey"
Him: good kid
Her: and then BvOp tries to make it
better and he says "Oh i lived in jersey once" And I was like
"ok bye guys" and just left.
Him: she is like BvOp's main
squeeze?
Her: I don’t know and I don’t give 2
shits.
Him: Ok Ok. Look
have a suggestion for you -
Her: Yes?
Him: Ok so when I am in UK why don’t
you see if you can get some people - like Jeremy, Austin, and your new friend
(Frankie???) and ya Davey if we can stand him for like a Monday or Wednesday or
possibly Thursday after class happy hour at local bar?
Her: ha maybe.
Him: Just friends for a causal drink
or two. No big pup crawl but just for friendly convo etc. and oh ya Indian guy.
Her: yea maybe
Him: and the girl who hangs with
smokers. Do it after class though girl.
Her: Yea ... why
do you suggest it?
Him: You organize it. Because I know stuff about you porkchop.
Her: ha what stuff? I know stuff about you too.
Him: Never mind. Yes you do. I know about your needs.
Her: So overall you were right and I
should have gone to class and next time he asks me to drink i will do my shit
first and then go whether he is there or not there.
Him: Yes.
Her: not "he" but the people
who is there drinking
Him: I never saw the reason you went
out of your way to begin with.
Her: yea.
Him: Well do what I said - those people
are nice at least and have interesting convo.
Her: yes.
Him: Feel better some now?
Her: mm sort of. I mean yes about
you and me.
