MY WISHES FOR A LIFE

"I want to eat nothing but omelettes and cafe au lait, I want never to go out, I want to dream about copulations in the night, and write about them in the day, or vice versa, or both at the same time. I want to remember everything, and hope for nothing, and I want to die a hundred years hence, with aq volume of Randolph (sic) under my pillow, and the ghost of an erection still lingering between the sheets."
L Strachey  - to Leonard Woolf 1906

THANATOS

JMG

2007-2010

WHEN I have fears that I may cease to be
Before my pen has glean'd my teeming brain,
Before high pil`d books, in charact'ry,
Hold like rich garners the full-ripen'd grain;
When I behold, upon the night's starr'd face,	5
Huge cloudy symbols of a high romance,
And feel that I may never live to trace
Their shadows, with the magic hand of chance;
And when I feel, fair creature of an hour!
That I shall never look upon thee more,	10
Never have relish in the faery power
Of unreflecting love;—then on the shore
Of the wide world I stand alone, and think,
Till Love and Fame to nothingness do sink.

                                            Keats

SUFFERING AND THE PLACES IN THE HEART

"Man has places in his heart which do not yet exist, and into them enters suffering, in order that they might have existence."

Leon Bloy

SHADOWS ON THE WALL